Keep the Sabbath Day Holly a college experience:D

I just feel like remembering today. I remember this one time I was a senior or Junior in College and I had this big final that was all about this book Aging with Grace. Oh man I tried so hard to get that book read and reread and the time came we finally got the questions we needed to answer a week before they were due. Man Something came up EVERYDAY that week. Baby Jake was sick and needed me at night, Daddy Jake was doing something else. We had ward Temple night, then Farm day for the ward and I decided to go ahead and do these things. Felt good about it. Anyways soooo finally I had the whole day with nothing to do and guess what day it was?? ..haha SUNDAY:D that is right. Would Mandy do her homework on the Sabbath? No way:D I wouldn't do it. The final which half my grade depended on was not even hardly started and it was due at 8am!!! how wild is that! Now I didn't just idle away the week I really tried to find time but it just wasn't there and I followed the spirit. Obviously the spirit wanted me to fail this semester right:D anyways so I kept the Sabbath day holy and got up early early 4am Monday morning to work on the paper. I hashed it out and turned it in and waited to hear my grade. I knew I had help. I got inspiration for the answers and felt good about it. Anyways so I GOT 100!!! 100 freaking percent on the hardest exam of the year!! I got the highest grade in the class!!
The moral of the story?? If you want to succeed in life listen to the spirit and serve when it doesn't make sense and Keep the Sabbath day holy:D Heavenly Father is eager to show us how AMAZING he is:D I will never doubt keeping that day sacred again. I know Ill be blessed if I ever keep it holy again:D hahaha. lol oh boy I have so much to learn.

Good morning Love

Love This!! make sure and visit the video on Youtube and subscribe and rate for Jake:D love you guys!! Jake is amazing!! and he wrote this song for us!!! AMAZING!! its the coolest feeling in the world when your husband makes you feel AMAZING!!:Dthankyou baby:D

Celebrating ME!! (womanhood) Weeeeehaw!!

This is a peice done by Jakes Mom. She is an artist too! I love her paintings and this really makes me feel peaceful and feminine.
SO I was watching Oprah today:D HAHA I wonder how many blogs or conversations open with that everyday. Anyways Oprah has been totally inspirational this week! Suzie Orman on tomorrow! cant wait. anyways sooo There was one mother in particular talking today about how she had lost herself and Oprah was all like Hey being a mother staying home to raise your kids is Gods Greatest Work!!! I was so touched because you know Oprah's respect for mothers was so profound at that moment it made me realize how freaking COOOOL I am:D I mean seriously we are sooooo hard on ourselves and get lost in the day to day things and forget to blog and we feel so bad about ourselves so often and im not even pretending like im alone anymore cauze I know there are so many girls out there who feel the same as me! Yaeee for the internet bringing us all together to lift eachother up. Digressing sorry...so I say on a good day I am half nice to myself and half not so nice. have you noticed how you work so hard on Christmas dinner or whatever dinner and everything is perfect but that one thing...(didnt Elder Uchtdorf talk about that at the Relief Society meeting?) anyways but maybe there isnt enough salt on the mashed potatoes and we feel the need to point it out? we do that to ourselves all day. Oh my bathrooom is clean but...my whole house was clean at one point today but now has passed back to the realm of mishEVIL!!haha or man I worked so hard today and got so much done but it doesnt really look like it. Anyways I feel like I'm over emphasizing the naughty and underemphasizing the goodness all the time. its like Im not quite good enough for me or something. I mean Jake is so easy to please, the kids love eachother. We are all healthy and happy. I need to knock it off and be nice to myself! I mean I would never say some of the things I say to me to anyone else. I mean seriously Mandy get a grip! Oprah thinks yer awesomeness!!! Elder Uchtdorf thinks yer awesomeness...you should really pat yourself on the back and say five nice things about yourself:D so whoever is reading this I'm tagging you!!

Tag yer it:D say five nice things about yourself Ill start:D this is my campaign to get my friends to feel great about being a women no matter what stage we are in today!! Let your light shine!! No hiding:D We all need to see eachothers lights so we can shine even brighter together!! ready set ...GO!

1. I think Im hilarious!
2. I am getting better at being a mommy everyday. (cleaning cooking sewing giving the look:D kissing booboos)
3. I try to have a clean house. It might get messy but its clean...
4. Im getting better at taking time out for me. For example: Last night Jake got home I fed my family and then was on the verge of melting down and said hey I think I need some time and let Jake handle the noise as I plugged in my earplugs and took a bath:D Yaeee for me for taking a minuet when I needed one!! (you know whats funny Im trying so hard not to feel guilty as I write this haha...how ridiculous! Jake loves chilling with the kids so its not like im torching him for an hour while I take a much needed break..plus Ill smell better when he kisses me next right:D)
5. I laughed with my kids today!

cheers to our awesomeness as mothers wives sisters grandmothers friends and cool chicks
ps if you do take time to do this please leave a comment!!!

Homeless!

K Im gunna try that again as soon as I figure out what happened. sorry!!

Coolest Weekend EVER!

Hi Blog:D its been forever!! well I have sooooo much to blog about but I wanted to write one down for sure so I wont forget how I felt.

So Nov.21..the release of Twilight!! LOVED IT! waited forever checked my TMs everyday and the lex too:D and read up on the actors and all that fun jazz and I got to go to the midnight viewing with Heather!! Thanks Heather!! THEEEN I got to go again with Kandi and Heather and Chelsea to the TMs event at the district and Oh my that was sooo much fun. Kinda emberassing at one point when I thought Camile had won a real live Volvo and it turned out to be a little toy car..HAHAHAHAHAH that is something I will remember forever. I was sooo freaking excited for her!! oh my gosh!! Anyways so Ran to the railing to yell down stairs that she had won...went back to her and found out it was just a toy..then went back to the railling and yelled just a toy car...hahah anyways its a fun memory for us all to laugh about:D soooo I LOVED the movie and loved being with my cool gal pals even better.

Saturday night I got to go to the coldplay concert. me and Jake cought the tracks down there and had so much fun flirting and playing on the train..haha then the show was AMAZING!!! Ive never imagined a show could be sooo cool!! WOW the lights the energy and fun that was all over the place that night! Oh what a high!! LOVED IT! thanks to Heather and Casey for hooking it up for Jake and me!! IT was seriously the coolest show ever. better even than Jack. though its like comparing apples and oranges:D kinda

Sunday comes around and I get to teach my five year olds:D Me and Chelsea share a class. So fun. Anyways for like a minuet durring the class I had their attention! That is amazing for all eyes to be on me and I knew the spirit was here and that they could feel it and I could feel it and we all grew in that one minuet. Its so rare that that happens I just am amazed by it. When little people learn with me. That my friends was the best minuet of my weekend. We were talking about the Savior and the Resurection and I was bearing testimony of it. And I knew it and I just felt the spirit sooooo strong. There is no movie or concert in the world that will leave you feeling more alive or more amazed than the feeling of knowing that the Savior is real ant that He Lives for me and for you! amazing!!

On this hang all the Laws and Prophets

Matt 22:36-40
36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law?
37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
38 This is the first and great commandment.
39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

I just dont know what to add to this:D loving eachother means forgiving eachother when we make mistakes or say the wrong things(which happens to me all the time!!! like yesterday I have no idea what I was talking about at enrichment lol..hope you guys forgive me if I said something totally off base. im usually trying to make people laugh and go a little overboard with weird stuff. so anyways I really need forgiveness a lot for that so you guys have to forgive me cuz its a commandment and because you love me:D hehe). Okay moving on. So when we love we have no room for hate or jelousy. We get excited when others succeed. We make allowances for people who might have offended us because we know who they are. We all are children of Heavenly Father and if we love him we would never hurt eachother by steeling, lying, killing and so on and if we love Heavenly Father we will pay tithing and pray and worship no other and keep the sabath day holy.

Now of course none are perfect in love in this life all the time. But we can work on it. I know that if I study the scriptures and pray and focus on love and treating people the way the Savior would treat me in this situation then I really do fill up with the love in my heart. I really am forgiving and I really am happy for others!!. The whole world would be such a sweeter place if we would just love a little more. Love is seriously addictive. Its a sweet feeling and nothing feels better than feeling the spirit. No drug no car no grudge can make us feel so high and so complete and so good inside. Once we taste love we will always want more!! When we are in a hurry and all stressed out if we stop moving and rushing and take time to be kind to our children or spouse we feel so much better...anyways I know I do.

So much has happened this week that im gunna blog about in my family blog. This is what I read and thought about last night. How nice a place this world would be if we all knew and loved eachother as we should:D I feel so loved and wonderful for the most part in my ward and in my family. I cannot wait for the world to be bursting at the seems with love!!

More on Forgiveness

Well Ive been researching my Forgiveness topic and I totally realize that I have some forgiving to do. Here is a great quote I found on Lds.org

Dr. Sidney Simon, a recognized authority on values realization, has provided an excellent definition of forgiveness as it applies to human relationships: “Forgiveness is freeing up and putting to better use the energy once consumed by holding grudges, harboring resentments, and nursing unhealed wounds.

This reminds me of how I feel:D...free:D hehehe
Saying I forgive you does not mean that what someone did is okay. It just means Im ready to let go and move on. Im ready to use my energy for good. Im ready to heal. I can say I forgive you to my father even though he hasn't asked for it. I can say it and mean it. That doesn't mean I am letting him back into my life or that all his inactivity in my life was okay it just means Im letting go and wishing him well. Does that make sense? Its something Ive really really struggled with. I had a really good talk with my sister this weekend (I love you Bell thankyou:) and I just realize that you know what I'm not the only one who can't deal with him...thats okay. It is alright for me not to deal with my Father. It kinda makes me sad that I cant just dig deep and find the charity I need to be a part of his life but I am so not feeling guilty for that right now or ashamed. I feel empowered. It sounds really harsh to me in my head but I really feel strong and healthy now that Ive closed that book. I have to laugh and think is that really really okay? because he is lonely he is sick and he has brain damage. Shouldnt I dig deep and let him in? My answer has to be no. Maybe its no for now but I cant let the drama of my sperm doner because that is essnetially what he is...thankyou dad for giving my Mom a chance to give birth to me. Thankyou for paying your child support and thankyou for staying away for so long. You know in saying I forgive I am also saying goodbye. Maybe we can be friends in Heaven:D..but right now I have to do what is best for me and my family. It is saying goodbye to my dad's mother as well. That is a difficult thing for me too. I mean she is sposed to be my grandma and im sposed to take care of her...but im not...and I feel sooo comforted about that. It really makes no sense to my logic...but my heart says its the right thing for me...anyways I hope this helps other people some day when im giving talks all around the world. WAHOOOOO:D
So I forgive my dad. I am so glad I got to talk to Beth and im really excited to use this new energy I have for love and fun and my children:D...K Im off to clean my house!!!